Ok, I’ve been avoiding this post for a while….the first “need to get in shape” post.
But the fact is, I really need to get in shape.
I’m overweight. There, I said it.
Why? Because I like spaghetti and cupcakes and beer and sitting on my couch. Um, yeah.
But part of this Fearless Creative journey is about being happy with myself, and the only way to do that is to be healthy. And I’m not healthy. It’s not even as much about losing weight as it is about taking care of myself. I mean, sure, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to look better in a bathing suit (but really, what woman doesn’t?). But I want to feel strong, I want to feel like I can do anything I want without worrying that my body is going to let me down.
This is a hard post to write. It’s not something I’m sharing lightly….but I’m putting it out there because I need to be kept accountable. And because maybe it’ll inspire someone, maybe someone reading this will feel a little less alone.
I’m on SparkPeople, and have been for years. I do challenges, I have SparkFriends, and I’m relatively active with it. But if I’m honest, I’ve been coasting by. I haven’t been trying, I haven’t been working at it. And the scale is going the wrong direction, and I refuse to buy more clothes.
I stick with SparkPeople because I love the philosophy, that this is a lifestyle change, not a diet, and that everything is ok in moderation. That’s what I’m going for. No fad diets, no deprivation, no unrealistic exercise programs I won’t be able to stick with. Just a slow and steady overhaul of my eating and exercise habits. Or in some cases, creating habits to begin with.
Last week I started tracking my food again. I hate hate hate doing it….but it works. Yeah it’s a hassle, and yeah it’s depressing to see that I’ve eaten 2400 calories when I was supposed to stay somewhere around 1400. But it’s in your face, and all of a sudden that second cupcake doesn’t sound so good when you know you’ve gotta enter it in your tracker.
I forgot to enter yesterday’s food in there, but here’s a snapshot of the last week….I haven’t been doing so well, though you can definitely see improvement over the week!
So yeah, not the greatest, especially at first. And yeah, I haven’t entered today’s either. I’m working on it! Anyway, so that yellow bar? That’s my calorie range I’m supposed to stay in. Based on SparkPeople’s recommended numbers according to my fitness level (ahem, sedentary) and weight to lose per week (1-1.5 pounds). I WILL get there.
And since eating alone won’t make me healthy, I suppose I should exercise.
In the past I was a runner. I’d like to get back to that someday, but sadly, it’s a whole lot harder to get excited about running when you’re carrying an extra 60 pounds (yes, seriously). In college I did yoga, and was super flexible. Like running, yoga is more difficult when your stomach gets in the way. Then I tried Zumba, and hated it. It made me angry because I was so uncoordinated. Most recently, I did Les Mills’ Combat, and got through 3 weeks. I loved it. It made me feel strong, made me hurt in places I didn’t know I had, and was FUN. Then I got distracted and didn’t like feeling like I was on a schedule or some other nonsense.
All excuses. All bullshit.
It’s time to turn that around. It’s time to get back into running, it’s time to be flexible again, it’s time to work on my dance moves, and it’s time to be a warrior. And anything else.
So here it is….my challenge to myself to exercise 15 minutes every day, for 100 days.
Anything goes, but it starts today. 100 Days of Fitness. I can do any workout, but I have to do at least 15 minutes. I’m not going to map it out. I’m not going to beat myself up if I don’t do more than 15 minutes. I’m going to embrace it, and I’m going to be proud of myself for sticking with it. And I WILL stick with it.
And I’m going to chronicle it here.
Don’t worry, I’m not going to post every day. I’ve created a new page for that (look up!). I’ll hit the high points, when I try new workouts or have some really great achievement, or hit a milestone.
I’ll be done on November 25th. I can do this.
So here’s to Day 1!